Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Crazy

Last night Zachary was watching TV on our bed while Big Zach was in the shower. When Zach came out Zachary was watching Catholic mass. Zach said "Whatcha watching? Why are you watching that?" Zachary's answer was simple- "Its the word of GOD, dad. Because this is the word of God!" And he was adamant that he finish watching it too!

Lucy is hanging in there alright. After my last post I went to bed and Lucy slept through the whole night! Yay! And then did it again last night too! Double yay!
I started trying to increase Lucy's feedings to test the waters since the lollipops have been out for a week now. So far no diarrhea after eating, like before, but she doesn't seem to be feeling well even still. She just lays around most of the day. Her lips continue to flare and bleed, but not as badly as Sunday's mess.
We took the kids shopping for Halloween costumes today. Zachary picked himself out a "scary" skeleton and Lucy spent the entire time asking if we could go home. Eventually I picked up a fairy princess costume that I am sure if she were feeling right, she would love.
I am hopeful that the fact shes not having "the Big D" after each of her larger feedings today is a sign that the culprit behind this entire fiasco has all along been the lollipops. Its heartbreaking to permanently lose them, they were her first and only food she's had for more than a few days. However, losing lollipops pales in comparison to losing her formula.
At this point I cant really tell if we are on the up and up or not. I stare at her all day long waiting for something to happen, scrutinizing over every ounce of formula and over every wince or whine she makes. I feel like I am losing my mind. I don't even remember what normal was like to compare all this to anymore. Its so confusing and frustrating.
I spoke with both the allergist and GI doc. We expect to hear from the hospital today or tomorrow about a scope. Both doctors remain in agreement that we need a scope since its been 2 years since our last one, regardless of the lollipop situation.

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