Day 1

Yesterday was Day 1 of lollipop removal. It was not easy, as I expected. I took the kids up to Target and we got a Magic Bullet to make Lucy some "snow" out of ice. She absolutely loves her snow, but shes no fool, its not a lollipop. If you know Lucy, you know she NEVER gives up so I listened to a continuous mantra of "Can I have a lolly now? Can I have a lolly now, PUHLEEESE?" all day long. I felt like the meanest mom in the world and I started to wonder what memory will she have of this, will she think I was cruel and harsh?

This experience is making me rethink the idea of trialing foods ever again. How on earth can I put her through this again later on down the road whenever we get back to trialing foods? She doesn't understand this. This experience is like giving your kids everything they ask for on Christmas, letting them play with it for 15 minutes and then telling them that they need to pack them up and give the toys away to someone else. This is all way beyond a 2 year old's comprehension. Clearly we wont be trialing foods at all this year, but I think I may turn trials down until Lucy is old enough to understand she may not get to keep the foods we trial. From a psychological standpoint this sounds reasonable.

My second concern right now is that the lollipops equated a lot of calories for Lu with her limited formula intake. Each ounce of formula is 30 calories and each lollipop is 20 calories. So cutting out the lollipops now further reduces Lucy's daily caloric intake. The process to comb through her stomach issues can take months. Scheduling for her tests could happen as far as 4 weeks away, much less finding a cure for whatever is found on those tests. How thin will she be by then? Its a scary thought.